A different side of the luck equation

For so long, we’ve been on the wrong side of luck.

- 1 in 8 people experience infertility– CHECK

- 10% of those experiencing infertility are considered unexplained — CHECK

- 40-50% chance of IVF working out– Yeah… not check

- Varicocele surgery fixes the majority of men — Yeah… not check

- Suspected endometriosis– CHECK

After multiple failed cycles, including many medicated and one failed IVF last fall, Huzzy had varicocele surgery in February with both positive and terrifying results. While his morphology improved drastically, his overall numbers plummeted. Our RE even took away our chance at injectables because of the numbers. Getting pregnant without drugs/IVF was pretty much a 1% chance I was told. I am  happy to say that we FINALLY are on the right side of luck, because… we are pregnant. We landed in the 1%.

I was supposed to have a lap surgery to check for and remove endometriosis on July 18, in preparation for our second and final IVF in October. On July 2, I was starting to wonder where AF was (because I didn’t want it during surgery). She had been crazy since the last IVF… my LP went to 13-16 days (from a normal 11 before) and every month I started spotting around 6dpo and didn’t stop until AF (I never spotted before)… who visited hard and heavy for 10 days (which was the same length I had before IVF). So when July 2 came along at 13dpo and I didn’t have AF yet, it wasn’t extremely strange because this is the way it had been for the previous six months after IVF… but I didn’t have any spotting, which I had had since then.

I hesitated to take an HPT because I didn’t want to see what I knew would be another BFN. So I waited a day. I really needed AF to get here and knew the best way to do that was to take a test… because she invariably comes hours after I take one. So I took it and went to go do other things. Less than five minutes later, I came back to throw it away and there it was… the test line SUPER dark–darker than even the control line.

I took a deep breath and stared at it. Then realized I needed to tell my husband. So I went to a special drawer where I had stashed a Harley-Davidson Father’s Day Card (that I bought two years ago expecting to use it) and gave it to him. He looked at it and asked if this meant I had something to tell him. I nodded and grabbed his hand and took him to the bathroom to show him.

That morning, I called the RE to see if I could get a beta. But since it was Thursday, July 3, the clinic was closed for a four day holiday weekend. So I waited until Monday the 7th (18dpo) to call. And my beta was crazy high at 2,487. My beta 48 hours later was even crazier… 5,689. That was a doubling time of 39 hours. My PCM and I were slightly worried about a molar pregnancy. Friday we had our first ultrasound at 7w1d. We saw one perfect baby measuring three days ahead with a perfect heartbeat of 154. I finally could breathe a sigh of relief. I know it’s early, but after seeing the heartbeat, the chance of miscarriage drops significantly.

I want to say that this blog is going to chronicle my journey… wherever that leads. I understand that some people may need to unfollow. I understand. I’ve been there. I will, however, promise to be sensitive and always remember those still in the infertility trenches. As I said on Twitter, I still feel as though I’m in the trenches… I’ve just been able to grab onto the side and am trying to claw my way out.

If you know me on Facebook… PLEASE don’t say anything as I am not “out” yet and won’t be for a while. 


Knowing the Type of Zombie

I have a lap scheduled two weeks from tomorrow. It’s supposed to tell me if I have endometriosis, which one of my doctors is thinking is pretty definite.

Unexplained infertility is a tough beast to deal with. While I don’t want endometriosis, it would be nice to know what’s wrong with me. I actually had a conversation with someone on Twitter the other day where I said, “It’s like dealing with zombies… it’d be nice to know what kind you are dealing with.”  I mean, you would deal with a runner zombie differently than a swimming or “regular” zombie. Or so I’m told…. Huzzy is the one who likes zombie stuff and I only saw a part of a movie once.

Regardless, it would be nice to find out what’s wrong with me so we can be armed and fight that rather than just shrugging shoulders and using shotgun blast.



Looking for IVF/Adoption Peeps Who Want an Easy Fundraiser

Ok, so I mentioned a while ago that I am now an independent consultant for Jamberry, which will help me save for IVF.

So many fun colors... and we even have Jamberry Juniors for little fingers and toes!

So many fun colors… and we even have Jamberry Juniors for little fingers and toes!

But I want to give back to those within my infertility community… how would you like to earn a minimum of 10% and up to 25% of sales that go toward your IVF or adoption fund? Jamberry does an awesome job with fundraisers and offers 10%, but I’m willing to offer up additional money from my own commission to get your fundraiser earn up to 25% of sales.

Jamberry is SO EASY to sell that you could potentially earn a lot of $$ to help you with your journey. Here are some reasons I love Jamberry (and have before I even became a consultant):

  • Made in the USA (awesome, for this military spouse and Navy reservist)
  • Can be used on artificial nails
  • Last up to two weeks on fingers
  • Last up to six weeks on toes
  • No dry time
  • No chips
  • No harmful chemicals
  • Non-toxic
  • Formaldehyde free
  • Latex free
  • Never animal tested
  • More than 300 designs

So, please let me know if you want to fundraise for your infertility journey… I want to help us ALL bring home baby!


New Business Venture

I have always loved having pretty nails and back in the day, I used to get acrylic nails because I loved how pretty they were. But, let’s face it, they are expensive. And they ruin your real nails. So I went back to regular nails and occasionally did my own French manicure, but it takes too damn long and it never looked the best (no way can I get those lines right).

Perfect for Independence Day and Canada Day next month!

Perfect for Independence Day and Canada Day next month!

Then, I was introduced to Jamberry nail wraps and fell in love. They are so simple and even a doofus like me can do them and have better-than-professional looking nails that last for two weeks and don’t ruin your nails (you CAN use them on acrylics, too!). On toes (yay pretty toes!) they last for six weeks. Sold. And all for somewhere around $2.81 a manicure/pedicure? Double sold.

Six-ish months later and I was offered the opportunity to become a Jamberry consultant. I am so excited for the opportunity to show people

why I love these nails and how to save BUCCO $$ by not having to go to the nail salon. I’m also using this as an opportunity to save money for our IVF coming up in October, but the main reason is… dude, these are so awesome I want to give people an opportunity to save money and not sacrifice pretty nails (frankly, the designs = better than what salons can do).

After seven days...

Seven Day Challange… after seven days: Jamberry (left) vs. nail polish

So I want to off YOU the opportunity to try these for free. I’m issuing all my readers a challenge to try them and compare them to their regular nail routine. Here’s what you have to do.

  1. Tell me you accept the challenge and I’ll mail you FREE samples to try.
  2. Put a sample on one of your fingers on each hand and paint the rest with your favorite nail polish. Take a photo.
  3. Seven days later, take another photo of the same hand. Tell me what you think!

Who’s up for the challenge? Who wants free samples? Email me your name and mailing address at myjamnails2 (at) gmail.com This offer is good through Friday, June 13, 2014 =)


The RE Appointment to Endo RE Appointments…

Today has been a crazy day. I went to bed after receiving a text from my mom that my sister-in-law (of the “I’m infertile-oops-I’m-not-it-only-took-me-three-months fame) was going to give birth to my niece sometime overnight. SIL and my brother’s first wedding anniversary was just four days ago.  So, I woke up to texts that she had arrived, safe and sound. Pictures showed the babe looks like me… poor child.

Today was also a consult with the endometriosis RE specialist at Madigan today. I had seen/worked with all the REs in the clinic except him. And, OMG, I love him. He even gave me a hug after the appointment… he really does care.

The doctor's notes for me... yes, it's written on and torn off the paper that goes on the exam table. LOL

The doctor’s notes he wrote for me… yes, it’s written on and torn off the paper that goes on the exam table. LOL

So what I learned (according to my doctor) at the appointment is:

  • Each woman has a 6-10% chance of having endometriosis
  • If a woman has unexplained infertility (like I do), she has a 25-50% chance of having endometriosis
  • If a woman has a first-generation family member (mother/sister) with endometriosis, she is 6x more likely to have it… 36-60% chance
  • Around 33% of women with endometriosis have thyroid (especially autoimmune hypothyroid) issues–which I have
  • If a woman has Stage I or II endometriosis and it is removed, chances of conceiving go from 17% to 31%–nearly that of an IVF cycle
  • Endometriosis affects the left side of your body more than your right (holy crap… that’s were my pain usually is!)
  • Endometriosis can make the body attack any foreign objects, this includes embryos because they have male components to them
  • Endometriosis can affect the quality of your eggs
  • Endometriosis can affect the corpus luteum, which can cause a shortened LP, which can be an issue (mine is a suspect 11 days)


So basically, what this means for me is I have more than a 60% chance of having endometriosis. A lap (laproscopy) has been scheduled for July 18. We’ll find out for sure then if I do have it.

On top of everything, Huzzy’s follow up SA came back today. He had a pretty bad SA a few weeks ago as a follow-up to his varicocelectomy.  The result was the same. His morphology is great and showed 27% this time, which is in line with the 30% last time. Much, much better than the 6-8% he was having over the past several years. Unfortunately, his overall numbers are dismal. In fact, they are significantly worse now than even before the surgery.

Two years ago next month, he had numbers in the 220 million range… the fact that he had only 6-8% morphology didn’t matter because the numbers were so high. But then they started to fall over the next two years. They went down to 80 million. And 60 million. And 40 million, which is what we had at IVF last November (all still at the 6-8% morphology).  So he had a varicocelectomy because the urologist suspected that was not only the reason for his poor morphology, but also his numbers.

His numbers are around 10 million now. While the morph is much better, this is a dismal number and the fact that it has continued to decline at a rapid rate, even after surgery, is alarming. With these numbers, the doctors say IVF is pretty much our only option. I mean, we’ve already had one failed IVF, so saying it’s worth it to pay for a hybrid cycle with IUI isn’t worth it when the numbers… as of now, are at the lowest bottom edge they are ok with (and no clue if they will continue to fall).

So that’s where we are right now… probable endo and a lap on July 18. And this point, a second IVF is our only option. Now to only get Huzzy on board.