The Joys of Life and the Pains of Life

When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.
~Franklin D. Roosevelt

I’ve been a bad blogger lately. It’s just that I’ve been so busy. And I know everyone is busy with their lives, but when you work 47 days in a row with only three days off (two jobs plus the Navy Reserve drill weekend… so three jobs!) while trying to get a house ready to be put on the market so you can finally, FINALLY live with your husband who is deploying soon… blogging just seems to take a back seat.  And I really don’t want it to.

So once this house is on the market, I’m going to dry that month-long blogging thing where you blog each day of the month. The house should be on the market in the next week or two, so I think I’ll start that in September.

Add to all that fun is the fact that I stepped on a carpet staple that was left from when we pulled the carpeting up four months ago. That silly little puncture wound that I didn’t even realize broke the skin until the next day has caused me the most grief of any injury I’ve ever had.

I punctured it on a Tuesday night.  Wednesday night I noticed it had broken the skin, so I cleaned it with hydrogen peroxide and put some triple antibiotic ointment on it (I wasn’t worried about tetanus since I’d had two of those stupid shots in the last four years). By Friday night, I noticed that it was starting to look a bit infected.  So I started soaking it in Epsom Salt baths and adding water to some of the Epsom Salt to make a poultice to slap on it and wrap it up.

During work Monday I noticed that my toe was really starting to ache. So when I went home, I unwrapped the bandage and noticed that not only was it still infected, but there was a gray ring circling the wound.  Skin isn’t supposed to be gray, no matter what race you are.

So, off to Urgent Care I went. The doctor there (I was back in a room in less than 10 minutes!) said that it was definitely trying to get severely infected and put me on some Cipro antibiotic.

It stopped being painful to the touch and started looking much better just 18 hours later. Because of Tri-Care, I had to go to a follow up the next day with my Primary Care Manager (PCM)’s office.  I was told that by the looks of it (and it was already looking better!) I did the right thing in going to Urgent Care.

That Friday at work, I noticed that it was really starting to ache again. So, I decided to take off my bandage at work and check it.  Yeah, was NOT looking good and was looking like it was getting infected again. By this point, I had a bulge out of the wound that protruded about 1/8″. The doctors took one look at it and decided that they wanted to be uber-safe and put me on Bactrim–both oral and topical–which is a stronger antibiotic and would even fight MRSA, which they didn’t think I had but wanted to make sure I didn’t get.

Because I was to leave the following Thursday to see my husband for the first time in 11 weeks! and to go to my first drill weekend, they wanted a follow-up on Tuesday just to make sure. Tuesday came and they were really surprised that it wasn’t healing better than it was.  Mind you, I was mostly limping this whole time because pressure on it really hurt. The doctor (PA, actually) was a little worried about me traveling cross-country for five days and it wasn’t until I assured him that I was near several hospitals, including Navy ones, that he felt better.  I did have a doctor’s note that I was not to run during my drill weekend.

So, Thursday I headed to Washington and saw my husband again (I’ll talk more about that later).  Saturdays of a drill weekend with my command include PT in the afternoon. I had told several people several times that I wasn’t supposed to run and had a doctor’s note for it.  All the officers were male and there were two female Chiefs there. So, PT time came and they decided to do some version of Ultimate Frisbee, even though it was 90 outside (though felt only like 80 or so to me since there is no humidity in Washington state). They had asked me of I brought my PT gear, and I said yes but that I wasn’t supposed to run. So I was told, “Then join us, but don’t run.”

Okay, so just how are you supposed to play Ultimate Frisbee without running? I was the new kid on the block and the only female officer to boot. It was my first drill weekend ever and only the second time I was in uniform. I didn’t want to be labeled “that woman” who couldn’t hack it with the guys and played the “poor me” card. So I sucked it up and played the best I could, which included running.

By the end of the first game, I was really struggling. We all took a break to get some water and get in the shade. I started shaking and thought it was weird that the heat was getting to me… and my toe was throbbing more than it had in quite a while.  Little did I know it was none of those problems, but I’ll get to that.  The Skipper heard my voice, which I guess was shaking too, and decided that I was to sit out the next game and that I was to be monitored. He volunteered first.  Actually, he kept asking if I wanted to be taken to medical, but I refused because I figured it was just me being stupid and overdoing my toe. Again, little did I know it was something else and I probably should have gone to medical.

So I finished my drill weekend, where I didn’t get to do anything but stare at some screens watching check points around the area and a GPS of the ferries going across the Sound. My CAC card wasn’t set up yet, so I couldn’t even access a computer.

I was teased a bit (which I expected being the Newb… and totally deserved since it took me three tries to put my belt on correctly. Note to self: don’t let your husband help dress you in the morning because men and women wear their belts differently in the Navy.) and they decided to make me the Bull Ensign, which is the most senior Ensign in the group. Which is funny because it was my first weekend… but the next lowest ranking officer is a LT, so it worked. They went and bought me larger butter bars (the collar devices we wear to show our rank) and had them engraved with the word “Bull” on them. The teasing and the Bull Ensign thing really made me feel welcome and I’m going to miss the command when I leave for my new command in October.

So, on Sunday after my last drill, Huzzy and I went to get some pizza where we could see Seattle across the water. As we were eating, I started scratching the bumps that had appeared around my wrists and thumbs two days prior. I had assumed it was bed bugs (eww! we checked and didn’t see any) or heat rash. I looked down and saw the bumps had really turned into a rash and was spreading all the way up to my shoulders on both arms. I knew immediately that it was an allergic reaction and that with me traveling cross country back home, I needed to get this fixed before it was an extreme emergency mid-air.

I figured it was the antibiotics I was on, but I was on day 9 of the 10 day schedule. So I called the on-call nurse, as you need to do with Tri-Care to go to Urgent Care (didn’t know if it was truly an emergency since I wasn’t having problems breathing). They said that it did indeed sound like it and to stop taking the antibiotic and get some Benadryl and start taking that. Apparently, an allergic reaction to Bactrim is pretty common… and you are more susceptible to heat when you are on it. Oh how fun.

So, I had another doctor’s appointment when I returned home on Tuesday. The doctor decided that the toe wasn’t healing and that it was time to see a podiatrist.  That Friday, I got a call saying my appointment was for later in the afternoon. He took one look at it and knew it was… they call it Proud Flesh in horses (I actually said it looked like that a week prior since my horse had it) and that’s a nickname for it in humans. Basically, my skin cells went nuts and produced too much skin/scar tissue so now I have a bubble outside of the wound that actually has veins in it and stuff.  It’s tender and hopefully it will go away. The podiatrist has said that it’s tough to get rid of but we are doing the “wait and see” method as opposed to cauterizing (doesn’t always make it better) and cutting it out (could make it come back… worse).

Fun. This coming Tuesday will be five weeks. I’m tired of it.

This post is getting long so I’m not even going to mention the dogs being sick multiple times or a stupid bee… or bull hornet or something… flying up my pantleg and stinging me like mad.

So that was the Pains of Life. The Joys of Life were that I finally got to see Huzzy for the first time in 11 weeks. We had been married for 18 weeks at that point. By the time I see him in 12 days again, we’ll have seen each other for 11 1/2 weeks and been married for almost 22 weeks. That’s half our marriage apart. Not fun, especially with a deployment on the horizon on his end.

If I don’t get out there to  live by the time he deploys (which is looking like I won’t be), we’ll have spent 3/4 of our first year apart, and unfortunately, not all due to deployment. Deployment is one thing, not being together because of stupid circumstances is another.

So yeah, it was absolutely wonderful to see Huzzy.  Well, as much as I saw him. He picked me up at the airport after he got out of work on Thursday the 23rd and had to work Friday, then I worked Saturday and Sunday, and then we had to be up at 0430 to get me to the plane for my trip home Monday morning.  At least we got to see each other a few hours each night.  It was heaven on Earth.  I missed him like mad and had to really blink away tears when I saw him the first time in the airport. I’m such a sap.

This trip, it’s planned for me to get there late evening (like 2330) on a Wednesday, for him to work Thursday and Friday, for me to drill Saturday and Sunday and then for us to BOTH have the following Monday through Sunday together without either of us having to work. Then he’ll work Monday and I’ll leave Tuesday morning.

And I say planned because there is always a “but.”   This “but” is the fact that while I have someone to watch the Fuzzy Monster (aka Skah the 115lb  1 1/2 year old Great Pyrenees), I don’t have anyone to watch the Greyhounds. My normal dog sitter (and maid of honor!) got too allergic in my house. See, she is fine with the Greyhounds as long as she takes her allergy shots, but is extremly allergic to the Fuzzy Monster. Apparently, even though I vacuumed and dusted and everything in the house, there is too much of him in there and she was highly miserable during the whole time we were gone.  My mom had taken Skah for the long weekend since I knew Jamers was allergic to him.

So, I went to my back-ups. I tried a couple who I dog sat for three years ago–no go because they would also be gone. I tried the local Greyhound group president–no go because she is having surgery. I tried a young co-worker who sits for her aunt’s Grey–no go because she and her boyfriend are taking a vacation to San Diego during the time.

The only other option I could think of was the person who watched Skah on our Honeymoon. She is VERY reasonably priced at $15/day for one dog and $25/day for two.  But that comes down to $350 that we just don’t have.

So I’m about ready to cancel the vacation and just go the Wednesday prior to my drill weekend through Monday. I’d have to change my ticket, but that would only be $75.  My mom told me not to cancel yet because if we could get someone to help her walk the dogs (she doesn’t have a fenced in yard) that she’d take them. That’s four dogs (she has one of her own)  she’d be walking four times a day… 16 dog walks! I feel horrible about it and am not sure I’m going to take her up on the offer (if we can even find someone to help her).  But a part of me feels really selfish and wants to so that I can spend SOME time with Huzzy before he deploys and I don’t see him until into 2010.

*sigh* Such is the Navy Wife Life.

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I’m Alive

I’m alive and fine.  Well, almost.  I stepped on a carpet staple two weeks ago and that resulted in one Urgent Care visit (five days later), and so far three doctors’ appointments with one scheduled next week. Add in two changes of antibiotics including one that is hopefully killing the “possibly worried about (<— says the doctor) MRSA.”  I’m now on an oral and topical antibiotic. And soaking my foot each night in Epsom Salts.  Yeah, it’s not healing so well.

I’m so busy that I haven’t been able to blog. With the staple incident, I haven’t been very mobile and have been pretty out of it. Also, I’m getting ready to fly out tomorrow to see my husband for the first time in three months! Yay!

First drill is this weekend, too.  Uh, yeah, marching and running will not be in my repitoire for the weekend.  I even have a doc’s note for it :)

Be back later!

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Thursday Thirteen #8: Random Thoughts

Did you ever stop to think, and forget to start again?
~Winnie the Pooh

It’s time for the Thursday Thirteen again. If you have a Thursday Thirteen of your own, leave your website in the comments section and I’ll try my darndest to visit it :)

13 Random Thoughts

  1. I suddenly looked down the other day and noticed that our 17 month old Great Pyrenees puppy is no longer a puppy.  He’s filled out and is totally boxy now instead of lean and lanky. It happened pretty much overnight
    Skah at only 11 months... he had lots more growing to do!

    Skah at only 11 months... he had lots more growing to do!

    (which is probably why he’s limping… they do that when they have huge growth spurts).  My puppy is gone!  But at least he’s replaced by a majestic, regal dog.

  2. Why do people insist on being stupid? Ignorant I can deal with but stupid is a whole ‘nother ball game.
  3. I hope I get gained by my Navy Reserve command in the next few weeks. I’d love to start drilling soon.
  4. My commissioning ceremony is Saturday. Holy Moley, it’s turned into something huge! Apparently the CO of the recruiting district has made it mandatory for all recruiters in this zone. Probably has something to do with the good connections both my place of work and myself have with him.
  5. I’m terrified that I’m going to show how new I am that day. I had to ask the local Chief with help on how my combo cover is supposed to fit.  And I just finally figured out today a good way to do my hair the way I’m supposed to.
  6. I was about to cut off said hair to my chin just so I didn’t have to deal with putting it up the “proper” way, which I couldn’t figure out until today.
  7. This past weekend marked 3 months that Huzzy and I have been married.
  8. By the time I see him, we’ll have been apart 11 out of 18 weeks of our marriage. Most will say that it’s the Navy life, but he’s not on deployment.  That will happen sometime this fall.
  9. I need to make a page on OPSEC (Operational Security) so people know why I can’t be more specific than “this fall.”  I got the idea of doing a page like this from To the Nth. I hope she doesn’t mind me copying her idea.
  10. I am really craving some Olive Garden Soup, Salad and Breadsticks lunch. Huzzy and I need to save as much as we can since we are supporting two households (and I am working two jobs to do that). But he went out with friends to see Transformers last night and I think I should get something, too. Besides, that lunch won’t cost as much as the movie did.
  11. I really need to get my house finished and on the market. I’m glad my mom and brother are coming over this weekend to help. Too bad I have to work on Sunday, too.
  12. My mom is bringing over a twin mattress. WOO-HOO!!!! No more sleeping on couch cushions on the floor (though they are infinintely better than sleeping on an air mattress that can’t hold its air)!
  13. I need to start doing these things days in advance so they are already up and I don’t have to scramble around every Thursday morning to get my morning stuff done AND my TT.

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Exhaustion and a Plane Ticket

God help me. I’m so tired. I need my sleep. I make no bones about it. I need eight hours a day, and at least ten at night…
~Bill Hicks

That’s how I feel right now.  I could sleep for hours just to get up and do it again.  I just don’t know how much longer I can do this anymore. And no, I’m not ill.

Huzzy and I started sleeping on air mattresses when the movers came to PCS our stuff and packed up our mattresses

Yeah, this is how I feel. Every. Minute. Of. The. Day.

Yeah, this is how I feel. Every. Minute. Of. The. Day.

and everything but some clothes, a few pots and pans, a TV and one broken old couch.  That means, I have not slept on a mattress for more than two months now. Huzzy got a few nights in a hotel on his way to Washington to his new duty station but other than that, air mattresses are what we’ve been dealing with.

We have also found out that air mattresses (or at least ours) will not hold their air after about a month of nightly use.  Huzzy’s went first (though it did survive the 2,600 mile trek westward) and my started having problems slightly afterward.  I’m at the point where I fill it full just before bed and then wake up at about 4 a.m. with excruciating back pain only to find that the mattress has deflated enough that it needs to be filled again before I can sleep and my back gets some rest.

So that’s how it’s been going. Until Friday night, when a mass of severe storms rolled through producing three tornadoes within a 20 mile distance from my house.  Electricity went out about 9:30 p.m. just as I was taking the dogs out for their last walk.  I’m sure it was  a sight to see me outside yelling for the dogs to hurry, hurry, hurry because the lightning started getting close again and I could only imagine the next day’s headlines “Woman struck by lightning for holding flashlight while getting dogs to poop in a strong storm.”

Anyway, so the storm went out and I was left with no way to inflate the mattress (no, I couldn’t do it the old-fashioned way by using my lung power, either). So I did the only thing I could… I took the cushions off the couch and put them in the bedroom to sleep on. The dogs were miserable and so was I.  If you take one fuzzy dog that pants at 65 degrees, put him in a house that is stifling at 80+ degrees with no way to ventilate because of a ranging storm and have no way of placing fans on him (which is the only way he sleeps soundly) because the power is out and you have my Friday night.

After listening to Skah pant for an hour, I decided to take my couch cushions and sleep on the couch.  After an hour of listening to him pace and pant over the gate I put across the bedroom (a heavily panting dog with hardwood floors and no furniture makes a HORRIBLE echo… it was even louder than when I was in the room due to the echoing), I gave up the couch and took my cushions to the other side of the kitchen in the tiny family room.  It was there that I finally got some sleep…. at about 1:30 a.m. when I had to be up in less than five hours to go to work (second job).

But darned if I didn’t get better sleep there than I did on the air mattress… probably because I didn’t have to wake up a few hours before my alarm to turn on the light, fumble for the air pump and re-inflate the air mattress.  So I decided I wasn’t going to use the air mattress anymore.

I’m not sure which is better… sleeping on a full-sized air mattress where you have room to stretch out and move around but have to wake up in the middle of the night to re-inflate OR sleeping on couch cushions on the floor that don’t even give you room to turn over (ouch!) and will sometimes split apart where you fall down between them… but at least I can stretch out there too. Or is it the third option?

So I decided to try to compromise and last night I slept on the couch so I wouldn’t fall off the cushions and so I didn’t have to re-inflate everything. The dogs needed to be with me or I’d hear Skah’s panting and pacing again so I covered the entire floor with blankets and dog beds to stave off the “click-click” when they walk around during the night.

Downside? I can’t stretch out on the couch. My back is paying for it today. But I slept all night long and so did the dogs, so that was a plus.  I guess I can’t win either way.

ticketWhich goes into my next topic… I bought a plane ticket for Washington for the end of July because I expect to be drilling out there by then. I planned on just changing my ticket if my paperwork didn’t go through quick enough, but I really feel like the $400 plane ticket is worth it just to sleep in a hotel for five days.  Oh, and because I’d also be able to see Huzzy for the first time in 11 weeks.

HA! Who am I kidding? Seeing Huzzy is my #1 reason and the rest are all a very distant second.  I’m so excited! <insert happy dance here>  We’ll have been married 18 weeks by then and will have only been together for seven. It’s about darn time I see him before he has to deploy sometime this fall.

Since I bought the ticket on Sunday (or was it Saturday? I can’t remember), missing Huzzy has gotten worse. It was easier to deal with “eh, I’m not going to see him for a long time” than “I get to see him in <checks watch> four weeks and two days!” It’s so close that I find myself longing to be back in his arms.

When I didn’t know when I’d see him next, I could just shelve those emotions and say, “Eh, honey that’s not for a long time.” But now it’s within reach… he’s almost within reach.  And the wait is starting to become really hard. Any other military spouses out there feel the same way?  When seeing your spouse is so far away, you can deal with it better than as the time nears?

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Another Year Older

A birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun.  Enjoy the trip.
~Author Unknown

I can’t believe I’m 27 today. I know that’s still young, but dang! I sure am getting close to 30. I still see myself as 23-24 years old.

Twenty-seven is just one of those years that is making me feel old. Changing from 25 to 26 felt like no big deal. This year feels like huge jump.  A few months ago I noticed some very faint crow’s feet starting to appear, which really took me aback. But at least they are smile lines and not frown lines. I’d hate to have frown lines.

Let’s see… the past year included:

June

  • Taking my first vacation in two years… and my first two-week vacation ever! Yes, with the then 60-pound 5 month old puppy.
  • Going down to the St. Louis area to Huzzy’s hometown and seeing where he grew up
  • Riding my first motorcycle ever
  • Nearly being bounced off said motorcycle on the highway

July

  • Huzzy completely moved in to my house.
  • We learned that our orders were going to be to Washington state (versus southern Georgia). Yay!

August

  • Had a yard sale.

September

  • Decided I wanted to look into becoming a Navy Reserve Public Affairs Officer.
  • Decided I wanted to pursue a Navy Reserve Public Affairs Officer commission.

October

  • I dunno what happened… I was busy!

November

  • Went to my second awards dinner/dance for the Navy recruiting district. Minus the dancing since they didn’t have that :(
  • Thanksgiving with my family… probably the last one for quite a while.
  • Found out that our then 10-month-old puppy was 100% deaf. He was 85 pounds.
  • Taught said puppy 6 signs in ASL in four days. Impressive!

December

  • Had three interviews with Navy Public Affairs Officers– and Captains at that!
  • One of those interviews I was very proud of. I called the Navy News Desk in Washington and asked the Lieutenant who answered the phone for help.
  • From that phone call, I was set up with a Captain at the Pentagon. The PENTAGON. I flew to D.C. to do the interview. I had an interview IN THE PENTAGON!
  • Sent my package into the board for review.
  • Christmas with Huzzy’s family… probably the last for quite a while.

January

  • I learned that I was selected in the January board as a Navy Reserve Public Affairs Officer.
  • The fuzzy pup turned one and was 99 pounds.

February

  • Did my physical for the Navy at MEPS.
  • On February 13, Huzzy asked me to marry him. Yes, it was Friday the 13th.  I hope that doesn’t mean anything bad!
  • We set the date for our wedding… we only had 5 weeks to plan.
  • Did a lot of planning!

March

  • Lots more planning for the wedding.
  • We were married on March 21, 2009.
  • We went on a “honeymoon” which really wasn’t one since we were actually on house hunting leave.

April

  • Huzzy checked out of his recruiting command.
  • Celebrated Huzzy’s 29th birthday.
  • Learned very quickly the bane of military wives everywhere: PCSing.
  • Started sleeping on an air mattress & living with one broken couch, a TV, two pots and one baking dish. Talk about Spartan living!

May

  • Said goodbye to my husband as he PCSed across the country without me.
  • Dealt with some annoyances with WalMart and my mortgage company, U.S. Bank Home Mortgage.
  • My commissioning documents arrived.
  • Still sleeping on an air mattress.
  • Started fixing up the house on my own.

June

  • Started working a second job… actually, it’s where I currently work, just I work the ticket counter on the weekend.
  • The fuzzy pup is nearly 1 1/2 years old and somewhere in the range of 110-115 pounds. I used to weigh that much… 9 years ago!
  • Commissioned as a United States Navy Reserve Public Affairs Officer.
  • Continued sleeping on an air mattress… that loses a lot of air each night.  My back is saying “ouch!”
  • Continued fixing up the house on my own in hopes to put it on the market this month.

Wow… lots has happened in just 12 months. This next year is going to see even more changes and fun and I’m really looking forward to it.

~Wifey