A dream has power to poison sleep.
~Percy Bysshe Shelley, “Mutability”
Do you dream more or differently when your spouse is deployed? I do. And they aren’t always nice dreams. I’ve had dreams where my husband has died and dreams where my husband has left me… either for another woman or because he got bored with me.
The dream this morning was a little different. I was at a Navy school… DINFOS maybe? Anyway, we were going to be parachuting and I was all suited up (we do NOT parachute at DINFOS). I was somehow the DIV-O of the group again (I was during DCO school in February) so I was trying to rally everyone.
When we were finished with our meeting, I was asked by the person in charge if I wanted my husband to be there. I said sure I did but that he was deployed. Then the person asked if I was sure. I said, yes, I was because he was out in the middle of the ocean on a mission and was even on a blackout where we weren’t getting any communication.
So he said, “Well, then someone who your husband works for is here” as he pointed toward a doorway. The person had a mustache and I replied, “I have no idea who that is.”
Then THAT person asked me if I wanted to see my husband. I was getting frustrated and told him yes, but my husband was deployed. He then pointed toward the doorway and my husband came out.
I slowly walked toward him and started bawling (like I do every time we see each other after being separated for a long time) as I fell into his arms. Tears were streaming down my face as I buried my head in his shoulder and breathed in his cologne…
… and I woke up with my head buried in his pillow with tears streaming down my face. It was 5 a.m. There was no way I was going back to sleep. So I sat up, took a deep breath and wiped the tears from my face. And I started my day.
So do you ever have dreams like that? Are they different when your loved one is deployed?