I put a call out for guest bloggers while I’m traveling home to Michigan for my younger brother’s wedding reception. This is the first post and it’s by the awesome Shanon over at Modern Meets Traditional. She is a a 20-something accounting professional who is madly in love with her husband, a Sailor in the US Navy. They have two fur children.
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Proverbs 3:5-6 (KJV)
I don’t consider myself to be struggling with infertility. Maybe I just haven’t accepted it yet, or maybe that is just how I am wired as an individual. In fact at this very moment my doctors and I don’t even know if it is a problem. So why did I volunteer to provide Wifey with a guest post about infertility? Because, while I am not struggling with infertility, I am facing it.
When we made the decision it was time for me to quit my job in Georgia and join him here in Virginia we also made the decision that it was time to stop preventing pregnancy. I stopped taking birth control and we just thought it would take a few months to get it out of my system then it would just happen, like magic. We thought wrong.
Sometimes it happens like that. In fact, I have the most wonderful Goddaughter who I love dearly and who is my whole world that came into this world in almost exactly that way Sometimes, when I think about how it worked with her I get a little sad, because that’s how I expected it to work for me. And it didn’t. But even when I’m sad, I look at the 5 (yes, 5) pictures of her I have hanging around my desk and can’t help but smile because that little girl has prepared me for the adventure of motherhood in a way nothing except having my own baby could. Granted I have been spared the midnight feedings, but I got to witness the miracle of her birth, I rejoiced the first time she rolled over (oops, didn’t know it was the first time and kindda let it slip to mom & dad who weren’t there…) I know the tricks to get her to fall asleep and just the right amount of cereal to add to her baby food. And all of this helps, and I know that it is preparing me for the greatest adventure of my life, but it doesn’t change the fact that I’ve never been pregnant. I thought I was, twice in fact, but I wasn’t. And that is how we found out something was wrong.
After many tests we found out that I had a polyup growing in my uterus. In March I had surgery to remove the polyup and hopefully everything is fixed now. When this deployment ends we will go back to trying. In the meantime while I wait for the Navy to give me back my husband I am going to do everything in my power to make sure that I am in the best possible shape when he gets home so that I know I have done everything possible to make sure I am in prime baby making shape J
Maybe when my husband gets home we will get pregnant…but maybe not, and I’m okay with that because I can face anything as long as I have my husband by my side and it’s not nearly as much of a struggle when you are facing it together.
This blog post barely scratches the surface of everything I have gone through over the past year, but here I am, out of the proverbial closet, and now that I have started writing about this experience words just keep flowing so consider this the first in what I am sure will be many blog posts about this experience on my blog.
If you want to hear more from Shanon, go check her out over at her blog!